Yesterday, hubby and I dropped DS#4 off at college. He is a sophomore but he transferred to a different university this year so it was a bit like dropping him off as a freshman. He didn't know anyone. Nobody knew him. He didn't know his way around campus. But he didn't want us to stay for the football parent meeting. And that's okay. I am so proud of this young man. He handled this transfer pretty much on his own. He arranged it all and that's really no small feat anymore. It's kind of a pain in the butt! And his transfer was even more of a pain because it involved getting a release for athletics so that he could receive a athletic scholarship and play football at the new school. That gives me some assurance that he really is capable of doing a lot to take care of himself! But this makes me sad! :( He no longer needs me! At least not like he used to. But as I write this I know that this is okay. It's what is supposed to happen. It means I've done my job. But... still sad. :(
Now to get the last chick out of the nest. DS#5 is such a sweet young man. He is caring and loving and has a big heart for the disenfranchised. I think this probably relates to him being a bit disenfranchised himself. I should explain that DS#5 is adopted. We got him when he was 14. I should tell you his story because it is a TOTAL God Thing!
His b-mother, that's what we call his birth mother, basically dropped him at a Department of Children and Family Services office and told the workers that she didn't have any place for him to live. He was 11 and was just starting the fifth grade. He was in foster care for 3 years. His foster father was good to him but he never really bonded with the foster mother. I feel like this is at partially due to the fact the he didn't, and still doesn't, really trust women. Who could blame him after what b-mom did?! His foster family introduced DS#5 to Jesus. (Because of regulations in the foster care system he couldn't be baptized. Shortly after we got him hubby baptized him into obedience to Jesus.) He stayed with this foster family for nearly three years.
Enter DS#2. He was working at a church camp. One evening DS#5 asked if DS#2 had time to talk and proceeded to tell him that his b-mom had voluntarily given him up for adoption. He explained that the caseworker had told him that 14 year old boys rarely get adopted. He was worried at what would become of him. He wanted a family and he wanted a family that practiced faith in Jesus. He was scared that he would grow up without a family at all. It breaks my heart to think of how sad and lost he must have felt. After their conversation DS#2 told him that he would pray about his situation but really didn't know what else to do. He was only 21, himself.
The next morning he called me and told me the story and asked me to pray. I began praying right away but I just kept hearing (not literally, of course) the Lord say "Hands and feet, Laurie Jo, hands and feet." I knew what the Lord wanted but I also didn't want to make this decision based on emotion and I couldn't make such a decision with hubby. I told the Lord that if we were to be this boy's parents He would have to make it abundantly clear to us. He would have to open doors so wide that we could do nothing but fall through them. The first open door was flung open when I called my husband just a few minutes later. He had left earlier that day for a work detail that I expected would keep him from answering my call. I had planned to just leave him a message. He answered before I even heard the phone ring on my end. I started to tell him the story of this boy and before I was even halfway through he interrupted and asked "Have you called anyone to see if we can get him?" I knew then that this would happen. We were pregnant with a 14 year old boy!
We talked to our other sons, especially DS#4, the only one still living at home. He was 15 at the time. All of the boys were immediately excited about a new brother. So I made some phone calls. I'm sure that as I explained our story the caseworkers and secretaries in the various offices that I talked with thought I was a crazy lady. It took a day or two to figure out what the process would be to get DS#5. We had to first become foster parents then we could adopt DS#5 if he was agreeable as he would be at least 15 by the time that the adoption would be finalized. I called and asked that an application be sent to us. That application arrived in the mail within two days and as I looked over the stack of forms I faltered. It looked daunting. There were questions that I didn't even understand!! I wondered how other people did this! I set the ap aside for a few days. But I couldn't twiddle much time away because it was already mid-June and we wanted to have the "Baby" before school started. Finally I took an afternoon and filled out all of the papers. It really did take a whole afternoon! 5 hours! And I left some questions blank because I didn't know what in the world they were asking!!! After a brief respite from form-filling-out I took the forms to our local DCFS office and asked for help and later turned them in.
While we waited for the application to be processed we had to get fingerprinted and have a background check done on all members of the household that were over 16. That was 4 of us because DS#3 was at home on weekends from college. We had to have a home inspection. They wanted all kinds of things like the receipt for our dog's shots and physicals for all of us. Then hubby and I had to go to classes. These classes were only offered a few times a year. A God's timing thing - the classes started the very next weekend.... And they went for the next four Saturdays... And they had room for us in the classes.... And we didn't have one thing on our calender!! (Nothing short of amazing in itself!)
Seven weeks later on a Tuesday we got our license to be foster parents. (We have since learned that this process often takes close to a year. Again, a God thing!) On Wednesday we meet DS#5 at a Wendy's restaurant. Let's just say that it was an awkward meeting all the way around. Who meets their parents for the first time at a fast food restaurant?! Poor boy, I wish that it could have been a more auspicious meeting place. On Friday Hubby went to get DS#5 for the evening. I was already back to school or I would have gone too. We went to a football scrimmage and then had to take him back to his foster family. The next week we got him for the whole weekend. Taking him back to the foster home was so hard! On that next Wednesday we had a meeting with the caseworker, her boss, two CASA workers, a counselor and the foster dad to determine when we could take the baby home. I was pushing for the next weekend because school had just started and I didn't want him to be too far behind. The counsellor asked hubby and me to tell the story of how all this happened. Hubby let me do the telling. The counsellor told how she thought it was all good and that he seemed ready and so did we. Then the caseworker said she thought it was all good for us to take him home the coming weekend. The CASA workers then indicated that they too thought it would be good for DS#5 came home with us the next weekend. THEN the caseworker's boss spoke up. She was the ONLY person in the room who had NEVER even laid eyes on DS#5 or us before! She had the nerve to say that all of this was moving to fast. Thank goodness that my husband is a bold man. He spoke up and said that he thought maybe the one person in the room who most needed to be ready should be asked how he was about the whole thing and the the two little CASA workers promptly spoke up and said that they thought DS#5 get a say. In a very quivery voice he told the room full of people that had the power to decide so much of his fate that he was ready to go home with his family...US! It was agreed that we would get to take the baby home on Friday....two days away!! I was as excited as I could possibly be!!! and scared to death!! I thought "What have I done? We don't know this boy. We don't know his history. We don't know what kind of baggage he carries." BTW, they (DCFS will say they will tell you everything but if what they told us was all they knew, well..... then they must not be the brightest bulbs in the box.)
But the Lord is faithful. He knew that I couldn't handle certain things and those haven't been the things that we have had to deal with. He also knew that I needed to grow in some ways and sent this teenage boy to challenge me to do that. I'm not done growing because of being his mom. But my time with him is swiftly slipping away. He wants to join the Army after he graduates in the spring. This alone scares the bejeebers out of me. But I worry too that we haven't had enough time to give him all the tools he needs to be strong and bold for Jesus. I worry that he has ideas about women and other things that aren't completely founded in his faith. Then I remember that God already set this up. He knows what we all need and he provides!
The nest can empty when it's time. This little hen is ready.... getting ready anyway. I will be ready when the time comes. Not that there won't be tears, I'm sure there will. But I will be okay and so will he! Thank you, Jesus, for being all-knowing and all-powerful. Thank you for the opportunity to parent this amazing young man... and his older brothers who are equally amazing.
If you are a foster or adoptive parent I would love to hear from you, leave me a comment. If you are the parent of teenagers and grown children I would love to hear from you too! If you are an empty-nester, please let me know how to do it gracefully. Or if you are just reading to be reading I would love to hear from you too!
For the Lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Friday, August 10, 2012
Prayer for My Children
A long time ago my mother gave me a little typed and copied slip of paper with a list of 31 things to pray about, one for each day of the month. I don't remember where she got or even if she told me where she got it. I remember that she put it on my frig in the house we lived in then and told me to pick the date of the month and pray that day for that thing for my kids. I have said these prayers for my children ever since that day. That was over 15 years ago. I wouldn't want you to think I hadn't missed a day because I certainly have. I have missed whole weeks and maybe even whole months when I didn't say these prayers for my boys but I have uttered one of these prayers most days of the years that this little slip of paper has been hanging on my frig. They are simple little prayers, just a sentence long. Each one is supported by scriptures. It has amazed me through the years how often the prayer of the day has been just the right prayer for that day. Lots of times I would pray these prayers will fixing supper. Many times I would find out that the prayer was needed that day because of something one of the boys would share at supper that very evening. This happened so many times it couldn't have been a "coincidence"! I thought that today I would share this list of prayers with you all. If you have kids you can't do better than to pray for them.
1. Pray that they will grow as Jesus did. (Luke 2:52)
2. Pray that they will truly love the Lord. (Mark 12:30, I Peter 1:8)
3. Pray that they will accept Christ early in life. (2 Tim. 3:15)
4. Pray that they will offer themselves as living sacrifices. (Romans 12:1)
5. Pray that they will be disciplined and pure. (1 Cor. 9:27, Phil. 4:8)
6. Pray that they will be lead by the Holy Spirit. (Eph. 5:18, Gal. 5:22-23)
7. Pray that their lives will bring glory to God. (Matt. 5:16, 1 Cor. 6:20)
8. Pray that they will deny themselves for the Lord. (Mark 8:34, Phil. 1:21)
9. Pray that they will love and obey God's Word. (Psalms 199:97, 2 Tim 3:16)
10. Pray that they will devote themselves to prayer. (Col. 4:2)
11. Pray that they will live lives of worship and praise. (Phil. 4:4, Psalms 37:4)
12. Pray that they will love and be faithful to Christ's Church. (Eph. 3:10)
13. Pray that they will be set apart for the Lord's service. (2 Tim 2:21)
14. Pray that they will have a hatred for sin. (Psalms 97:10, Romans 12:9)
15. Pray that they will not love the world. (1 John 2:15, Romans 12:2, Titus 2:11)
16. Pray that they will choose friends properly. (Psalms 119:63, Prov. 13:20)
17. Pray that they will turn to God in repentance. (1 John 1:9, Psalms51:17)
18. Pray that they will be willing to change. (1 John 1:9, Psalms 51:17)
19. Pray that they will resist the devil and submit to God. (James 4:7)
20. Pray that they will seek God's will. (Psalms 37:4, Proverbs 3:5, Romans 12:1)
21. Pray that they will marry the right person. (2 Cor. 6:14)
22. Pray that they will remain pure before marriage. (1 Cor. 6:18)
23. Pray that they will not become materialistic. (Matt. 6:19, 1 Tim. 6:6)
24. Pray that they will value diligence and hard work. (Eccl. 9:10. 1 Thes. 4:11)
25. Pray that they will know that they are loved. (Matt. 19:14, Romans 5:8, Psalms 127:3)
26. Pray that they will be truly humble. (Romans 12:3, James 4:10, Mark 10:44)
27. Pray that they will respect those in authority. (Eph. 6:1, Romans 13:1)
28. Pray that they will love others and do good to them. (Mark 12:31, Eph. 5:2)
29. Pray that they will be Godly examples to others. (Prov. 20:11, Romans 12:17)
30. Pray that they will lead other to Christ. (James 5:20, Matt. 28:19)
31. Pray that they will remain faithful throughout life. (Gal. 6:9, Rev. 2:10)
As you can see it is a pretty inclusive list, everything from repentance and acceptance of Jesus to marrying the right person and leading others to Christ.
I told you that I would post somethings that I felt like hubby and I had done right in the parenting realm and I think praying these prayers for my boys was one of them. I hope you find them as helpful as I have.
May the Lord bless you as you parent your babies.
For the Lover of your soul and mine,
Laurie Jo
1. Pray that they will grow as Jesus did. (Luke 2:52)
2. Pray that they will truly love the Lord. (Mark 12:30, I Peter 1:8)
3. Pray that they will accept Christ early in life. (2 Tim. 3:15)
4. Pray that they will offer themselves as living sacrifices. (Romans 12:1)
5. Pray that they will be disciplined and pure. (1 Cor. 9:27, Phil. 4:8)
6. Pray that they will be lead by the Holy Spirit. (Eph. 5:18, Gal. 5:22-23)
7. Pray that their lives will bring glory to God. (Matt. 5:16, 1 Cor. 6:20)
8. Pray that they will deny themselves for the Lord. (Mark 8:34, Phil. 1:21)
9. Pray that they will love and obey God's Word. (Psalms 199:97, 2 Tim 3:16)
10. Pray that they will devote themselves to prayer. (Col. 4:2)
11. Pray that they will live lives of worship and praise. (Phil. 4:4, Psalms 37:4)
12. Pray that they will love and be faithful to Christ's Church. (Eph. 3:10)
13. Pray that they will be set apart for the Lord's service. (2 Tim 2:21)
14. Pray that they will have a hatred for sin. (Psalms 97:10, Romans 12:9)
15. Pray that they will not love the world. (1 John 2:15, Romans 12:2, Titus 2:11)
16. Pray that they will choose friends properly. (Psalms 119:63, Prov. 13:20)
17. Pray that they will turn to God in repentance. (1 John 1:9, Psalms51:17)
18. Pray that they will be willing to change. (1 John 1:9, Psalms 51:17)
19. Pray that they will resist the devil and submit to God. (James 4:7)
20. Pray that they will seek God's will. (Psalms 37:4, Proverbs 3:5, Romans 12:1)
21. Pray that they will marry the right person. (2 Cor. 6:14)
22. Pray that they will remain pure before marriage. (1 Cor. 6:18)
23. Pray that they will not become materialistic. (Matt. 6:19, 1 Tim. 6:6)
24. Pray that they will value diligence and hard work. (Eccl. 9:10. 1 Thes. 4:11)
25. Pray that they will know that they are loved. (Matt. 19:14, Romans 5:8, Psalms 127:3)
26. Pray that they will be truly humble. (Romans 12:3, James 4:10, Mark 10:44)
27. Pray that they will respect those in authority. (Eph. 6:1, Romans 13:1)
28. Pray that they will love others and do good to them. (Mark 12:31, Eph. 5:2)
29. Pray that they will be Godly examples to others. (Prov. 20:11, Romans 12:17)
30. Pray that they will lead other to Christ. (James 5:20, Matt. 28:19)
31. Pray that they will remain faithful throughout life. (Gal. 6:9, Rev. 2:10)
As you can see it is a pretty inclusive list, everything from repentance and acceptance of Jesus to marrying the right person and leading others to Christ.
I told you that I would post somethings that I felt like hubby and I had done right in the parenting realm and I think praying these prayers for my boys was one of them. I hope you find them as helpful as I have.
May the Lord bless you as you parent your babies.
For the Lover of your soul and mine,
Laurie Jo
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Loving Up on my Teenage Son!
I have discovered a way to let DS#5 know how much I think about him and love him. He really enjoys cute little surprises! He likes little notes taped to his steering wheel and little treats left for him in his locker or on his pillow. So I have searched the internet, especially Pintrest (I LOVE pintrest!!) for creative little treats and other little ways to surprise him and love up on him. Tomorrow he starts his senior year of high school! And tomorrow he has a football controlled scrimmage. He is the starting center (Ladies, that's the guy that hikes the football back to the quarterback.) and he's really good at it. And on defense he is the nose guard (that's the guy across from the center on defense). He's pretty darn good at this position too. He's just kind of a big deal in football. And he's just a big guy, 6'2" and 240 lbs! (And I swear at least one of those tree trunk legs of his is hollow!) But for all his bigness the little boy on the inside still gets tickled at a treat from his momma. Tomorrow I will leave him a Reese's BIG cup in his car with a cute little note saying "You're kind of a big deal!" Cleaver, huh?! :) Not original to me but I can't remember where I saw it so I'm sorry if I'm not crediting someone out there with the original idea. Anyway, I will put this in his car tonight and know that he will find it in the morning. It will make him smile and remind him that I think he's a really special, special young man.
If you want to find some of these ideas a really good place to look is www.thedatingdivas.com. I've mentioned this site before but it bears mentioning again. There are scads of cutesy-tootsey little ideas. Many have free printables too. Check them out! These chickas are soooo creative! While most of their ideas are meant for your hubby there are plenty of them that are easily adapted and used for your kiddos. One that I found there was the framed "I love you because..." You put that saying under the glass and then change out the reasons that you love them every so often by writing on the glass with a dry erase marker or a sharpie. Both can be easily removed with a few drops of alcohol. I made one of these for DS#5. I'm not as good at keeping it updated as I should be but I think he appreciates it. He's kind of quiet so it's hard to tell sometimes! I plan to to this for hubby and DS#4 too but neither of them needed reassurance from me as much as DS#5 so he got the first one.
I would love to include a pic of these ideas but I'm kind of techno-illiterate. I need help! Maybe I'll get it figured out and can add them later. Sorry!
When you are feeling like a gulf is developing between you and your teen leaving a little note or sweet surprise might be a good way to remind them of your love.
And if you have any ideas for ways to build a child's self-esteem or bridge the gulf that sometimes develops between parents and kids, please leave me a comment! I would love to hear from you!
For the Lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
If you want to find some of these ideas a really good place to look is www.thedatingdivas.com. I've mentioned this site before but it bears mentioning again. There are scads of cutesy-tootsey little ideas. Many have free printables too. Check them out! These chickas are soooo creative! While most of their ideas are meant for your hubby there are plenty of them that are easily adapted and used for your kiddos. One that I found there was the framed "I love you because..." You put that saying under the glass and then change out the reasons that you love them every so often by writing on the glass with a dry erase marker or a sharpie. Both can be easily removed with a few drops of alcohol. I made one of these for DS#5. I'm not as good at keeping it updated as I should be but I think he appreciates it. He's kind of quiet so it's hard to tell sometimes! I plan to to this for hubby and DS#4 too but neither of them needed reassurance from me as much as DS#5 so he got the first one.
I would love to include a pic of these ideas but I'm kind of techno-illiterate. I need help! Maybe I'll get it figured out and can add them later. Sorry!
When you are feeling like a gulf is developing between you and your teen leaving a little note or sweet surprise might be a good way to remind them of your love.
And if you have any ideas for ways to build a child's self-esteem or bridge the gulf that sometimes develops between parents and kids, please leave me a comment! I would love to hear from you!
For the Lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
You look GOOOODDDD!!!! :-)
Well, ladies (and gents, if there are any of you reading) the first day of school for the teacher is over. I'm exhausted and it was a Taco Bell night. We had an open house at school so it was 7:00 before I got home! And then hubby and darling sons #3 and #4 were golfing. DS#4 was at football practice and I wasn't going to cook!!!
But that's not what this post is about.... It's about compliments. I got two compliments today, both on my appearance. Now maybe for some of you that is shallow but I still enjoyed each of them. I am a girlie girl. I like feeling feminine. I like dressing up and if you know me you know that I LOVE shoes. (They always fit or at least nobody really cares about the size as long as they're cute!) My first compliment was from my principal. He told me that I looked nice this evening and that he liked my outfit. (Bless his heart; he is the daddy to three daughters!) That was really nice of him to say and I thanked him. The second compliment came from the hubby. He didn't really say anything; he just gave me that look. You know the one that says "Baby, you look good!" That compliment made me feel really, really good. There is no one on the planet that I would rather look good to and for than the love of my life!
So why am I telling you this? Well, I guess because both compliments made me feel so good. And that got me to thinking about a couple of things.....
First, how often do I make someone feel like I did today? I'm pretty sure that hubby would tell you that I compliment him pretty often. He often looks so good and I tell him. This morning he was headed to a meeting dressed in business attire and he looked Goooodddd!!! But how often do I complment him in general? This man that I am married to is amazing! He's really good at what he does. He works hard. He's a great dad. Do I let him know how amazing I think he is? I think so but I am purposing today to be more deliberate about it. It's good to make the man in your life feel special, to let him know that you noticed that he was great with your son during a meltdown over a broken heart or that you are really proud of his accomplishments at work. I want hubby to feel better about himself when he is around me than when he is around anyone else. Now don't get me wrong. There is a definite responsibility of a wife to be honest with her husband about problems or things that he needs to change but the more common communication should make him feel good about himself and about being married to you.
Hubby isn't the only one that I want to make feel like a million bucks. I have five sons, three daugther-in-laws, lots of neices and nephews, my parents, and a bunch of students everyday starting on Friday. I want all of them to feel good about themselves when I'm with them. I want them all to know how special I think they are. (As a teacher, I know that many students want to do their best work for a teacher that has shown them how much they care about them. Just a little bonus!)
Secondly, I do kind of need compliments. I think it's one of my love languages. But sometimes hubby doesn't remember this. In fact, even though he is wonderful is countless ways, he really isn't very good at complimenting me... especially about my appearance. (Like I said even the compliment tonight was a look, not real words!) The funny thing about this is that he is great at telling my girlfriends that they are wearing a cute shirt or dress or whatever. This is not in a creepy way at all. He tells them this in front of me... but not in a way that is meant to make me feel bad or that he is comparing me to them at all. He just likes to make people feel good. My girlfriends and I all giggle about it because they know this is what he does. :) So how do I deal with this? Well, honestly, I used to get hurt feelings. I used to get really down on myself because he didn't tell me that he thought I was pretty or whatever. I used to get mad at him! I have learned something though. He doesn't realize that I need this from him! If I could tell him, it would make him sad that I need this from him and that he hadn't been doing it for me. But I can't really tell him this because he's kind of stubborn like that! (He's is supremely wonderful, ladies, but he ain't perfect!) So when I need him to notice something, like a cute dress I'm wearing, I ask him. "Honey, how do I look?" In fact, last week I asked him to help me pick an outfit for a gathering where we would be around a lot of his friends. I told him I wanted him to be proud of me. He told me how he appreciated my efforts and told me I looked very pretty in the outfit I had chosen. Not the spontaneously romantic compliment that would thrill my heart but still pretty good. The point, of course, is to let your hubby know what you need from him. In general, men are terrible mind-readers! To be fair though, we're not that good at it either, girls! So let's give 'em a fighting chance and give them a hint at what would make us happy. Communication, communication, communication!! I think we don't do this because we think it kills the romance - hogwash!! What really kills the romance is us pouting because our guy can't figure out what we want from him! Speak up, ladies!
For the Lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
But that's not what this post is about.... It's about compliments. I got two compliments today, both on my appearance. Now maybe for some of you that is shallow but I still enjoyed each of them. I am a girlie girl. I like feeling feminine. I like dressing up and if you know me you know that I LOVE shoes. (They always fit or at least nobody really cares about the size as long as they're cute!) My first compliment was from my principal. He told me that I looked nice this evening and that he liked my outfit. (Bless his heart; he is the daddy to three daughters!) That was really nice of him to say and I thanked him. The second compliment came from the hubby. He didn't really say anything; he just gave me that look. You know the one that says "Baby, you look good!" That compliment made me feel really, really good. There is no one on the planet that I would rather look good to and for than the love of my life!
So why am I telling you this? Well, I guess because both compliments made me feel so good. And that got me to thinking about a couple of things.....
First, how often do I make someone feel like I did today? I'm pretty sure that hubby would tell you that I compliment him pretty often. He often looks so good and I tell him. This morning he was headed to a meeting dressed in business attire and he looked Goooodddd!!! But how often do I complment him in general? This man that I am married to is amazing! He's really good at what he does. He works hard. He's a great dad. Do I let him know how amazing I think he is? I think so but I am purposing today to be more deliberate about it. It's good to make the man in your life feel special, to let him know that you noticed that he was great with your son during a meltdown over a broken heart or that you are really proud of his accomplishments at work. I want hubby to feel better about himself when he is around me than when he is around anyone else. Now don't get me wrong. There is a definite responsibility of a wife to be honest with her husband about problems or things that he needs to change but the more common communication should make him feel good about himself and about being married to you.
Hubby isn't the only one that I want to make feel like a million bucks. I have five sons, three daugther-in-laws, lots of neices and nephews, my parents, and a bunch of students everyday starting on Friday. I want all of them to feel good about themselves when I'm with them. I want them all to know how special I think they are. (As a teacher, I know that many students want to do their best work for a teacher that has shown them how much they care about them. Just a little bonus!)
Secondly, I do kind of need compliments. I think it's one of my love languages. But sometimes hubby doesn't remember this. In fact, even though he is wonderful is countless ways, he really isn't very good at complimenting me... especially about my appearance. (Like I said even the compliment tonight was a look, not real words!) The funny thing about this is that he is great at telling my girlfriends that they are wearing a cute shirt or dress or whatever. This is not in a creepy way at all. He tells them this in front of me... but not in a way that is meant to make me feel bad or that he is comparing me to them at all. He just likes to make people feel good. My girlfriends and I all giggle about it because they know this is what he does. :) So how do I deal with this? Well, honestly, I used to get hurt feelings. I used to get really down on myself because he didn't tell me that he thought I was pretty or whatever. I used to get mad at him! I have learned something though. He doesn't realize that I need this from him! If I could tell him, it would make him sad that I need this from him and that he hadn't been doing it for me. But I can't really tell him this because he's kind of stubborn like that! (He's is supremely wonderful, ladies, but he ain't perfect!) So when I need him to notice something, like a cute dress I'm wearing, I ask him. "Honey, how do I look?" In fact, last week I asked him to help me pick an outfit for a gathering where we would be around a lot of his friends. I told him I wanted him to be proud of me. He told me how he appreciated my efforts and told me I looked very pretty in the outfit I had chosen. Not the spontaneously romantic compliment that would thrill my heart but still pretty good. The point, of course, is to let your hubby know what you need from him. In general, men are terrible mind-readers! To be fair though, we're not that good at it either, girls! So let's give 'em a fighting chance and give them a hint at what would make us happy. Communication, communication, communication!! I think we don't do this because we think it kills the romance - hogwash!! What really kills the romance is us pouting because our guy can't figure out what we want from him! Speak up, ladies!
For the Lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Headed back to school... for all of us!
Well, this is it. Today is my last day of summer. :( I really love summer. Not for the reasons that you might expect though. Not because I can sleep late and stay up late and hang out with my peeps whenever I want and float around in the pool for hours at a time. Well, sure, those things play a part. But it's more than that. I love summer because I can take care of my home and family in the ways that I would like to all year long. I would thoroughly enjoy being a full-time homemaker. Well, as I type that I think I am a full-time homemaker, I just also have a job outside my home as well. I have asked God many times to allow me to be a full-time homemaker and at this point He has not granted me that request. I trust that he will do that when it is his time, even if that's when I retire!
As I head back to school so do my boys. Baby boy #4 is a sophomore at a university about 3 hours away. He will be living with a relative and we will be moving him on Saturday. This, of course, isn't the first time we've moved a son to college. In fact, it isn't even the first time we've moved this son to college! We've done this a few times now but that doesn't make it any easier. In fact, I think it may make it harder because now each time we move one out, even if it's just for the school year, I have, in the back of my mind, this thought, "This is it. He will never live at home again. I'm finished with the time that he is under my wing and under my influence daily." And I say a prayer that he will remember the good and right things that we have tried to teach him and forget the many mistakes that we made in parenting. Lord, protect and guide him. Put people in his path that are an influence for you. Guide his path in your righteous ways. Give him a purpose that is designed for him by you and then fit him with the tools to accomplish that purpose. Give him a heart for loving and serving you first and loving and serving others second and make the desire of his heart to please you.
Baby Boy #5 is a senior this year. That brings another whole set of emotions. I am excited for him. So many fun things to do. And I am sad that it's almost over. (I haven't had him long enough, Lord! Help me make the most of every opportunity you give me to teach him your ways!) But he's is going to be ready to fly the coupe (I hope) just like his brothers have been. And that's a good thing! That means their father and I have done our job! As hubby and I get him ready to fly the coupe I have some prayers for him and us. Lord, help us (especially me, because he and I have our sturggles) give him the things he needs from us, not just material things but the emotional, spiritual things as well. Lord, guide his path. Give him courage and boldness to make the choices that you would have him make. Lord, help him with his responsibilities. Give him the perserverance to accomplish all that needs to be accomplished this year. Make your purposes for him clear to him. Fit him with the tools that he will need to accomplish these purposes. Help him to see clearly the truly important things and to not allow the expedient to confuse him. Prepare the people that will be a part of his life a year from now. Make some of them your people. Give them hearts to understand what him. Make his heart's desire to serve you first and others second. Make his heart's desire to please you.
With true bittersweetness, I am enjoying lots of lasts and a few firsts with both of these guys. They have been so much fun! (as have all of my boys!) As our active, hands-on parenting years draw to a close I am (mostly) at peace with it. I say that I am. I say it out loud to others... because if I say it out loud I think it will be more true! I will convince myself that it is true. I still pray daily for my all of my guys, I'm sure I always will. I still long for, plan for, and completely enjoy the times when any of them are able to come home or we are able to visit them. But some days, like today, I'm a bit nostagic for the days of babbling baby sounds, toddler fits, curious 4 year-old questions, and grubby, sticky little boy bodies. I even miss those moody, then suddenly loving, teenagers. Each stage of childhood and parenting has such sweet stuff in it! If you are in the midst of these days, take a moment to really enjoy them, Touch them, smell them, watch them. Love them! And most importantly, teach them to love Jesus. If you get that part right, the rest is just gravy!
With that in mind, I will try to post a few things that hubby and I have found helpful in our parenting. Please understand that I do NOT in anyway hold us up as experts! We have made MANY mistakes, some of which have been very costly. But we have nearly raised 5 sons and we do have lots of experience because of that. We've found a few things that have worked well for us along the way. With that said (not that I won't repeat it) I will post a few of those things that we have learned in the coming days. Remember though... I'm headed back to the work-a-day world and moving a boy to college so the posts may be a while in coming. :)
If you have comments, ideas, recommendations, resources for dealing with raising teens, letting go of parenting, empty-nesting, etc. I would love to read them. Leave me a comment!
For the Lover of my soul,
Laurie Jo
Sunday, August 5, 2012
One Secret to Wedded Bliss....Running away from home! Together!
The hubby and I ran away from home last week! Just for one night and we didn't run very far but we did run. In fact, we went a mere 11 miles and stayed less than 24 hours but those hours were oh so good!
Some of you might be asking why do this for just that long and only go that far away. Well, it's not really about travelling and seeing anything new (obviously); although we did enjoy seeing our destination as tourists even though it's in our home county. And it's not really about time, again obviously. It was about being together, alone, and just being us, not mom and dad, or teacher and police officer, just a man and a woman in love for a lifetime.
How do we do this? Well, we did get lucky and got our room at the resort for free from a friend but we have done this even when it cost us a bit of cash. But if cash is an issue, here are a few options and ideas.
1. Look for coupons online. Check sites that post special deals like ideeli and livingsocial. You sign up for emails and they have some great deals. Be sure to read the fine print on the deals but lots of people have great success with these sites. You can even find deals for dinner out and fun attractions and events, movies, amusement park tix, etc. to go with your night at the hotel.
But if even with the coupons it's still not in the budget.... (We've been there!)
2. Find a babysitter. Use grandparents and aunts and uncles! Or farm the kids out to sleep-overs with buddies and plan an evening at home for just the two of you. Our chicks that are still at home are old enough (18 and 19) to stay by themselves and they did. Oh, the joys of having older kids! You could fix a special dinner for hubby or order out with the money you save by staying at home or you could go out for dinner and return home later. Whatever you choose to do make sure it's just the two of you.
3. Trade babysitting with another couple. This works especially well if the other couples' children are close in age to your own but they don't have to be. Sometimes it's good for kids to be around older kids. They think it's cool. And, of course, for older children they can be a great help with little ones so you might just be doing the other couple a bit of a favor by having your 10-15 year old stay with them if they have babies to younger school age kids.
What to do on your date? Well, we did the standard dinner out and a movie because hubby really wanted to see a new flick that just came out a bit ago. We did change it up a bit when we went back to the resort, we checked in on a little club that had live entertainment. There was a torch singer that was was really good. I had seen her before and knew what we would be hearing so I knew he would enjoy her performance. But again you can be as cheap or as elaborate or creative as you want.
You could....
1. rent a movie at the little red vending machine
2. order one on cable if you have that capability
3. go fishing
4. go hiking
5. go golfing
6. go bowling
7. go to a museum
8. go for a bike ride
9. go to a festival
10.go to a game, baseball, basketball, football, whatever
11.play miniature golf
12. lazer tag
13.go paint-balling
..... the possibilities are really endless!
Active dates are probably better because there's more time for conversation. If you want to be really creative or at least fool your hubby into thinking that you're really creative, go to www.thedatingdivas.com. These gals have tons of really creative, cute, fun, and cheap date night ideas. I am truly amazed by these women. But I will admit that sometimes I look at their ideas and know that my husband would roll on the floor laughing at some of them but while the tears were rolling down his face from the hilarity I know he would appreciate the thought and effort that had gone into the planning and preparation of some of these fun dates. Check them out. They really are divas!
1. Look for coupons online. Check sites that post special deals like ideeli and livingsocial. You sign up for emails and they have some great deals. Be sure to read the fine print on the deals but lots of people have great success with these sites. You can even find deals for dinner out and fun attractions and events, movies, amusement park tix, etc. to go with your night at the hotel.
But if even with the coupons it's still not in the budget.... (We've been there!)
2. Find a babysitter. Use grandparents and aunts and uncles! Or farm the kids out to sleep-overs with buddies and plan an evening at home for just the two of you. Our chicks that are still at home are old enough (18 and 19) to stay by themselves and they did. Oh, the joys of having older kids! You could fix a special dinner for hubby or order out with the money you save by staying at home or you could go out for dinner and return home later. Whatever you choose to do make sure it's just the two of you.
3. Trade babysitting with another couple. This works especially well if the other couples' children are close in age to your own but they don't have to be. Sometimes it's good for kids to be around older kids. They think it's cool. And, of course, for older children they can be a great help with little ones so you might just be doing the other couple a bit of a favor by having your 10-15 year old stay with them if they have babies to younger school age kids.
What to do on your date? Well, we did the standard dinner out and a movie because hubby really wanted to see a new flick that just came out a bit ago. We did change it up a bit when we went back to the resort, we checked in on a little club that had live entertainment. There was a torch singer that was was really good. I had seen her before and knew what we would be hearing so I knew he would enjoy her performance. But again you can be as cheap or as elaborate or creative as you want.
You could....
1. rent a movie at the little red vending machine
2. order one on cable if you have that capability
3. go fishing
4. go hiking
5. go golfing
6. go bowling
7. go to a museum
8. go for a bike ride
9. go to a festival
10.go to a game, baseball, basketball, football, whatever
11.play miniature golf
12. lazer tag
13.go paint-balling
..... the possibilities are really endless!
Active dates are probably better because there's more time for conversation. If you want to be really creative or at least fool your hubby into thinking that you're really creative, go to www.thedatingdivas.com. These gals have tons of really creative, cute, fun, and cheap date night ideas. I am truly amazed by these women. But I will admit that sometimes I look at their ideas and know that my husband would roll on the floor laughing at some of them but while the tears were rolling down his face from the hilarity I know he would appreciate the thought and effort that had gone into the planning and preparation of some of these fun dates. Check them out. They really are divas!
The main thing is ... don't take the kids! No kids allowed! at all! not for dinner or the movie or the activity or staying the night with you!!! They will live. In fact, they will be assured that their parents still love each other and that is a precious and important assurance for kids these days.
Leave a comment for me if you have a great idea for a date night or fun get-away idea for just the two of you. Or you can just leave a comment for any reason. I would love to hear from you!
Leave a comment for me if you have a great idea for a date night or fun get-away idea for just the two of you. Or you can just leave a comment for any reason. I would love to hear from you!
Wishing you wedded bliss!
For the Lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Loss and Love
This has been a difficult week to put it mildly. Last Saturday my hubby lost a very dear friend. Truthfully he was dear to both of us. He was hubby's roommate in the police academy. He was his partner in undercover narcotics investigations for many years and for a short time he was his sergeant. He was larger than life, physically and personality-wise. He was a loving, gentle giant of a man. He saw the worst that life had to offer but always wanted to believe the best of people even when they had wronged him. And they did wrong him. You see, this gentle giant was a black man. And he worked in his community fighting crime and injustice. But even though he was often mistreated and mistrusted by his community and sometimes even his colleagues, he believed and practiced forgiveness everyday.
The loss of this man in my hubby's life will be great. They were a great support system to each other. He pushed hubby into his sergeants position because he knew hubby would be good supervisor. (And he definitely is!) Hubby challenged him in his faith. (I just recently learned that they Christmas shopped together every year! Sneaky boogers!) We loved him and we love his family, his lovely wife, his two sweet sons, and his adorable daughter.
So my heart is heavy this week with the loss of this man. And my heart aches for his family and for hubby. I know what hubby is feeling having lost my dear, sweet Rita not two years ago. I admit I am a bit clueless as to how to help hubby deal with this loss. I am trying to be available to him just for talking and listening and hand-holding but that is nothing new. We "ran away from home" one night to stay at a resort not far from our home. I think that was a good distraction for him. More on this little trip later. But I don't really know that anything helps other than time and the sweet knowledge that it is just a temporary separation because we will see him again. Thank you, Lord , for the Hope of heaven.
If you don't have that Hope, please find a Christian friend, email or comment to me and let someone introduce you to Jesus. He loves you, no matter your circumstances, your past, your lifestyle, He loves you! And that love covers a multitude of sins, all you have to do is accept Him and learn to walk with Him. And He is the best teacher EVER!
Thankful for heaven and In love with Jesus, the lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
The loss of this man in my hubby's life will be great. They were a great support system to each other. He pushed hubby into his sergeants position because he knew hubby would be good supervisor. (And he definitely is!) Hubby challenged him in his faith. (I just recently learned that they Christmas shopped together every year! Sneaky boogers!) We loved him and we love his family, his lovely wife, his two sweet sons, and his adorable daughter.
So my heart is heavy this week with the loss of this man. And my heart aches for his family and for hubby. I know what hubby is feeling having lost my dear, sweet Rita not two years ago. I admit I am a bit clueless as to how to help hubby deal with this loss. I am trying to be available to him just for talking and listening and hand-holding but that is nothing new. We "ran away from home" one night to stay at a resort not far from our home. I think that was a good distraction for him. More on this little trip later. But I don't really know that anything helps other than time and the sweet knowledge that it is just a temporary separation because we will see him again. Thank you, Lord , for the Hope of heaven.
If you don't have that Hope, please find a Christian friend, email or comment to me and let someone introduce you to Jesus. He loves you, no matter your circumstances, your past, your lifestyle, He loves you! And that love covers a multitude of sins, all you have to do is accept Him and learn to walk with Him. And He is the best teacher EVER!
Thankful for heaven and In love with Jesus, the lover of my soul and yours,
Laurie Jo
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